Positivity in negativity

So I have ran bad for the last 3-4 weeks. To say that I have run like death, would be an understatement. But on second thought, this is more of figurative speech. I may have had bad run, I may have lost pots where I was supposed to win 90% of the times, but my instincts are still alive. I am still thinking, its putting pressure on me to not go in auto pilot. The worse thing that comes out of bad beats or death like run is that you start playing differently, taking chances since you remember that you were beaten before by a similar hand, perhaps, I might be able to beat em with that hand. The best thing that can come out of a bad run is focus, consistency. I have been in all in situations in the past few weeks with a over pair vs a under pair so many times and so far deep with big huge stacks, that winning those hands would have guaranteed a final table. Happened in Big 8 with 40 left KK<1010 and countless more. Expectation to win were hammered, I started questioning whether its my pessimist outlook that is getting me beaten due to once bitten twice shy attitude. This is from an article from Jared Tendler . One thing I want to bring out of this down swing is to keep focus, identify my weak plays ( as they get hidden in the layer of bad beats) and play my A game. I aim to take a big one down soon... Amen. GL Deuces...

Working on the MTT grind

For the past few months have been working on 180 mans and MTTS. Results have been decent. Working towards 99.99 on OPR. Difficult task, but hey if you can do it, so can I I am coming up. More to come! GL

Effect of fear and lack of confidence

So we all know fear is a big killer. I have heard people say fear is okay as it keeps us wary of things. It keeps us in check. But I think I found it otherwise, it seems in my case fear was causing me to make wrong decisions, it was making me negative as in predicting that I would loose the hand. And negativity boosts pessimism. I have been running like sickly for the last few months, whether its a MTT or Hypers 6 man 9 mans or 18 Man Turbos. I have lost sunday storm 66 vs AK vs 88 on flops of 6 A 3 for huge chip leads with my set getting beat by bigger set on river. I even started tweeting my bad beats. like insane beats where AA < A3 etc. I had lost complete confidence on Online poker, I even sent out an email to PS a month or so back mentioning about running bad. My bad beats got worse or so it felt. But today when I sat down, I thought, I will not worry about the variance and will just play the game with right decisions. I removed the idea from my mind that PS software is working against me. Hoping for better results, I started playing 180/45 mans. To my horror, things did not improve, I changed my bet sizing to not shove any hands, thinking shoving is not liked by the software at one point. But after loosing AA < A9, KK < A3 like atleast 5 times. I thought forget it, shoving does not make any difference. Back to my fearless state of mind, where defeat would have no impact on my playing I continued shoving at correct spots and holding a few and loosing a few. With about 6 games left out of 40ish games I played, I min cashed in like 2 or 3 180 mans and came 1 3rd in 45 man or so. With the remaining 6 I ran super hot or so it felt, when my AK would win a flip for a change. It felt good. Am pleased to say won 2 180 mans and amassed a ROI of 200 + in the 40 SNGS 45/180 mans. Not shabby for 2.5 hour of work.

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=615416268490207 Life begins where fear ends....

Grinding MTTs today...back to my A game

Its been a while...need to get some big scores :-) I am thinking need to play...bigger buyins.. Goodluck... Will tweet my performance for the day

Hypers it is for now.

Due to the busy schedule I have started playing games that require smaller time span to complete a set. Hypers it is for now. Goal for the month of June is to play 2000 Hyper, since it takes 1 hour for 60 games, hopefully can knock it out in 1 hour. Need a coach to improve the game.

I keep getting bad beats...does not sound real....

Seems like the site I play at has doomed my account.... Another one where I have big stack...and mind you these are not flips...all...in...pre...